In His Likeness w/ AntTBri

Some where along the way I heard the day before you take a test you should relax, all the effort and time put into preparation before will payoff, no such thing as cramming.  So I take this day to reflect not on the things I’ve learned, or experienced in regards to this last season.  I think on the coming season and rest in the fact that every thing needed for this season is already in me, God will draw it out at the appointed time.  I have availed myself to much prayer, reading the Word, praise and worship …the necessary words, character and gifting are present, fortified, nurtured and producing a harvest in the barren turned fertile fields of my life.

 God is truly a miracle worker, mighty are the works of his hands; him for me is all I need and as my former pastor use to always say “it bears repeating” this is your tables spread, your choice gift given, your hearts unveil toward me no worries I trust you completely with all my times in your hands.  This is a new season, hindrances, obstacles, past experiences etc are rendered powerless and ineffective after all the things I’ve been through I still have joy, peace, faith, love, temperance, gentleness, long-suffering, self-control, hope, desire, creativity, the best gift ever. I still have {Me}. 

As I went to sleep last night I began thinking about how trust has been a factor: the major stronghold in my life.  The truth of the matter is tomorrow (my birthday: Today)  is multifaceted in that I’m choosing to push beyond the wall of partition, to emergee from comfort zones and jump in with all of me: literally I’m going to fully trust again.  I look forward to the experience and feeling of being handled and covered correctly (without imposing/erecting my own self defense mechanisms).  I don’t know what to expect and that produces excitement all of its own.  I’m not walking in hoping it will be right I’m walking in knowing it’s going to be right totally convinced that God got me. Today my gift to myself is to find away to live and love from total trust from here on out…for the remainder of my days on this earth it is my choice to trust you completely for my life and love. God, you get to pick for me, to provide for me, and ultimately keep and fulfill your promise to me. So if not today, then you have the benefit of all my tomorrows. I trust you completely and renew my commitment to stay with and stand on  the foundation/platform.of total trust in God for my living and loving. Lord I sincerely thank you for the gift of me…it is the happiest of birthdays and I am going to make it a great one by trusting your plan, purpose, and promise of better to for me…

 

 Trust

God told me I could trust Him beyond my experience

He told me that His purpose for my living and loving will prevail

That destiny is still in tact

He told me to trust Him although I have no point of reference

He told me He would gift me with His heart expressed humanly

That you are an extension of His expression of love towards me

All this time, all these years I’ve been fighting to get to the place

of wholeness so I could fully trust what God has said,

continues to say “Sabrina you can trust him” that

You’re playing no games

 

I was watching a movie the other day

One of the characters asked “who did it work out for”

The other responded “Cinderella”

I must be modern-day Cinderella

Dressed by mistreatment and abuse, abandonment and rejection

Buffeted by the snickering and cruel affirmations/declarations of family members

Polished by injustices and in human treatment

Robed by lack, just enough, leftovers, and hand me downs

 

Here I, [sitting pretty] mirrored grace

Look out of these big brown eyes

Childhood peers use to tease me about calling me [Popeye] or [Frogger]

Telling myself wonderful beautiful sentiments that I finally truly believe

I am a gift to the world, cherished and treasured loved completely

I lack nothing everything I need has been deposited into me

I am full of possibility, power, and passion

Gifted, multidimensional, creative

I’m seeing myself even toned, silky smooth

Blessed, beautiful and brilliant

 

Tomorrow is coming and I’ll be attending a celebration

Designed for my coming out, breaking out, birthing forth 

I’m the center of attention the main attraction

Life has dressed me in beautiful apparel

Nothing was wasted… all things proven profitable and beneficial

Princess’s do become Queen…I’m trusting God for my King