Just when I thought early morning rising was a thing of the past, I’m up excited rejoicing in possibility, smiling, waving my hands, jumping, and shaking my head from side to side; at rest in my emotions knowing my times are in His hands, praying His will be done in my life; trusting His heart toward me; agreeing with the Holy Spirit for all He has in-store for me/us; proclaiming the Word over our lives; settled by the surety of knowing the will and purpose of God for our lives will prevail. I’ve been touched by God; he’s created a chase in my spirit what an awesome love affair producing heart prints. Heart prints are seared impressions upon the heart that move you to deeper levels of intimacy, productivity, and creativity; the overflow of embrace overshadowing the very organ that regulates your pulse, causes life to be. Heart prints happen when you’re open, most times you are unaware it has happened, and you notice something has changed, moved, shifted in you forever; it’s not limited to words, actions, gestures…it’s what happens in you in response to the acknowledgement of true love’s presence- the point in which you realize the reality of God in your life working on your behalf showing you his heart toward you through the life, existence of another.
It’s so funny to me that I can write about what I feel concerning you that I burst out in smiles, laughter as I replay moments in your presence and when given the opportunity to look you in the eye I shy down. You are so beautiful to me, I enjoy the exchange of catching your eye, obtaining your attention, my entire being craves it so I ask myself why do you rush through the moment, look away so quickly? I can’t explain what happens in those instances when I look and find you’re looking too. I know what I’m thinking and began to wonder what you’re thinking, feeling that overwhelms me or should I say flush my countenance so I look away quickly; to divert you seeing the excitement, girly grin that longs to play across my face. Wow! I’m hoping everything is just right, lighting, hair, make-up what effort put into a glance right? You matter, your opinion counts I want to be beautiful in your eyes, when our eyes meet I want to warm your existence, validate your inquiry, appease your attention. When you look at me it pulls me to a place of connection, heart to heart exchange, producing starry-eyed gazing…
I Feel You
You make me feel again
I can breathe intensely
I’m trying on hope
Robing myself in purpose
Settling into destiny
Self acceptance, love, hope
Brighter moments, days, a life
My best life
I’m feeling in new ways
Unsure but sure
Laughing, giggling, Getty
Tearing at such possibility, this opportunity
Listening to hear
Looking to see
Loving to feel
Accepting that It’s o.k. to be the real me
Expressive, creative
Enjoying, taking it all in
Living fully
Responding, my God after years
I’m able to feel
Not blocking or avoiding
Smothering or quieting
Indifferent to its existence
I’m looking forward to being vocal with what I feel
I can’t wait to express delight, pleasure
Now that it’s alright, permissible
This is freedom, love, life
I’m no longer feeling bad about me
Who I am, how I look
I don’t feel like a spectacle any longer
It matters not that there are imperfections
There are things I love about myself
My eyes, hair, smile, laughter, breast, legs, and style
There are a host of things accepted, previously hated
The size of my body, the thickness of my hair, hormonal imbalance
Not feeling beautiful, desired, or wanted by anyone
I’m alive, hopeful, and expectant
Of the new-found ability to feel
Vocalize pleasure and pain
It took the pain to get to this pleasure, desire
I feel you
You make me feel in ways I haven’t in years
I’m alive again hopeful, vibrant, creative and true
Crying when there’s nothing wrong
You’ve become the muse behind my every song
I’m laughing, living, loving again
I’m reaching, responding, resilient
Handsome has met beauty
Purpose found destiny
Heart Prints
~AntTBri
In His Likeness w/ AntTBri 
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