In His Likeness w/ AntTBri

Thoughts of you comfort me while I’m sleeping; chase me while I’m awake. I carry you in my spirit and cover you in my prayers. So out of everything I think and feel for you now: (admiration, respect, and honor) is in anticipation of the love and life we will share when we’re released to each other. I’m not begrudging the process nor formulating an opinion opposite God’s heart toward you. Observation’s seat has afforded me the opportunity to come into a greater awareness: I’m willing and want to be the life God uses to express His love for and of you. I may not know exactly who you are, or if you’re awake now to my existence…but I do know what God’s been speaking to me about you…my Adam, while you were sleeping.

While you were sleeping, God was fashioning my design, intricately forming my distinctiveness, making me distinguishable… so you would notice how I’m to help meet your vision.  You were sleep during my making…God spared you the gory details of what it took for me to come into being. I was birthed out of pain, pressure, and private perplexities disclosed but not necessarily discussed.  I am a result of your internal ponderings, the meditations of your heart, and the wantonness of what you noticed and longed for while you were awake.  Adam I am God’s response to your request of me.  You may not know or be aware of the actual request (when you made it) because you’ve been otherwise preoccupied with fulfilling your purpose and carrying out God’s plan for your being.  Living and loving “noticing” (that was requesting) how other life forms experience life in pairs. Its funny how in God even a thought can materialize into what was always His will and intention (his heart toward you)…is that how He works the will in us to do what is His good pleasure? Adam you may still be sleeping but I know you are yet wondering… requesting amongst all the events of your current experience… deep inside there is a hollowing of your existence that was created specifically for me and eventually you will ask God and He’ll allow you to awake to me.

Questions While You’re Sleeping

It seems you are currently oblivious to the synchrony, solidarity, and “specialness” we’re called to share. So I’m asking God questions significant to (my experience and need to love you) as I come into being. Like, how do I interpret, infuse, and even ignite his given energy?  What do I need to understand about his making, movements, and mannerisms that will help us walk out oneness? While it seems like God has been talking to me or revealing His heart toward you forever: I must admit that I’m still looking at our possibilities, purpose, and passion for God, ourselves, and others… panoramically. I’m coming to understand your strengths and learning to undergird your weaknesses but mostly I’m able to accept my own in light of the opportunity to be God’s expression of life and love to you.  Sleep as long as you need to, although I eagerly await, anticipate, and applaud your awakening because I trust that in your rest God is also downloading in you what will bring out the best in me…those qualities that will strengthen, sustain, and secure our specialness.

Although, I’m observing you now in the Spirit I understand your observation before knowing and experiencing me.  God afforded me time and opportunity to watch you both soar and suffer. I’ve witnessed facets of your trials and triumphs.  I’ve seen degrees of your struggles while witnessing the splendor of your stamina.  Many times asking God,” is it time yet?, can I help, let me help him, oh God how do you want me to, show me how to help him”…feeling such concern, care, and compassion for a heart that doesn’t even know me… yet my life has been groomed to love.  All the while hoping God will reveal to you (let you know) my heart which reflects the posture, position, and passion of God’s desire for and toward you …that “it’s going to get better Man” is the whisper of a developing expression of love and life that you will experience in the up and coming future. Adam I am awed by God’s choice of you for me and honored to be His CHOICE for you.  How intriguing is your ability to speak purpose to and over God’s creation…my heart eagerly awaits your affirming.  It’s so interesting a journey…the route God is penning to get us to the land of discovery.  I’m so thankful for all you’re experiencing that is preparing you for me while I am being prepared for you.  Hand claps, bravos, and a thunderous round of applause to what is now. Look at you man of God…flexing, focusing, fixing your heart and eyes on God. I understand you need this time to prove some things to yourself…its proof that you can do togetherness (you and God make an awesome team)…so I sit on the sidelines screaming and shouting “You better go, get it…alright…that’s how you do it… walk it out well.  I’m not in competition with your life experienced before or without me (nor will I ever be) because I understand everything and one holds their own significance and fulfills the purpose God sets forth…He does all things well.  The opportunity to love you whole heart in our future…matters more than those things used to prepare us for each-other in our present. I’ve been learning some things while you’ve been sleeping and praying for you continuously while I am yet being prepared as God’s heart expressed toward you… because I sense you will soon be awakened.

When You Wake Up

Adam when you wake up; I look forward to our connectedness, communion, and collaboration. Walk in the freedom of your masculinity while you experience my femininity…continuously speak life to me. Tell me, teach me how to access the power God has through you afforded me, lead and I will gladly follow and submit to your authority. I love the thought of you, the thought of us as God has been forming, fashioning, and speaking futuristically while you were sleeping. You missed the process of my growth and development so I will not hold you responsible for knowing what only God can reveal about my handling, healing, and holdings.  While you were sleeping Adam…God made me your gift:  I am both your present and presentation.   He wanted to gift you beyond your expectation, to further express His heart toward you so he intentionally purposed you’d experience me. Adam you were given me but I was assigned to you by the heart of God.  While your eyes were closed to my existence God breathed upon me what is life giving and sustaining.  There is purpose in my being that is intricately connected to our futures joining.

Wow, you will awake to the missing piece of your own perfection. When you look at me, I hope you see an extension of your own greatness, eloquence to your goodness…elaborate graciousness expressed in a manner you’ve never known but can identify as a part of who you are but never knew how to be. Imagine that, God in His infinite wisdom formed me while you were sleeping so when you awoke you would see the comparable version of yourself.  When you wake up and desire to truly understand me beyond my initial appearance, your apprehension, and the eventual articulations of our (fallen) flesh be sure to seek God, our Creator. Remember I am His heart’s expression toward you…an “authentic original” tailor made to fit you perfectly (as God designed, not necessarily how you desire or formulate your need of me).  Man I am so aware that You are God’s heart toward me…the set pattern for both my living and loving. And although you are not yet an option, you are my only option. I need and want to love you significantly, specifically. You emulate God and I will emulate the God I see in and through you…agreeing, accepting and affirming that you Man are my Adam… serving as my present, protector, provider, prophet and priest. Your love will always be God’s presentation of what His heart feels, desires, and purposes for me. Your eyes were shut while God was sharing His (yet) your vision with me. He showed me the particulars of your mission, what would become our mandate and I’m simply awaiting… the moment you will awake to me. Man Wake Up and realize that I am your Woman…bone of your bone and flesh of your flesh…the part taken out of (your version of) man ~AntTBri